Don't care about titles, Just need to vent by ichooseyoutaychu, literature
Literature
Don't care about titles, Just need to vent
I've dreamed of one thing
My entire life, one selfless thing.
I would hold myself and whisper
"I've not met you, yet
And I've still got time
Time to make sure your life will be perfect,
But I love you more than anything."
I would smile and imagine what was in store.
Pastel walls and rocking chairs
Photographs, knit blankets, teddy bears.
A man who would hold part of my heart
A smiling child that would hold the rest.
Fate was not so kind.
My only life goal
Ripped away from me.
Before I was born.
I was condemned.
The pastel walls turned dingy
A baby's laughter faded.
My dreams remain the same,
But now I hold myself
I cry t
A dance with death by ichooseyoutaychu, literature
Literature
A dance with death
The nothingness washes over you
And the brilliance of The Light fades away.
Her hand, so perfect and delicate,
Smoother and more flawless than a china doll,
Extends to you, inviting you.
The music starts and lost souls hush
As she twirls you across the paranormal plane.
The woes from your past life melt
And the afterlife envelopes you.
She leans in close to you,
Her chin upon your shoulder
Her lips brushing against your ear
And she coos a melodic warning to you.
"Remember, never forget."
The music stops, the world turns dark.
Millions of hands drag you away
Back to your body, back to a true hell.
Gasping in air until your lun
The lightning tore through the clouds,
Slicing them apart for us,
Only to show the masterpiece the stars had painted.
The thunder broke the barrier
And got our blood racing,
But I only heard your heartbeat.
Darling, the wind helped us dance
To the symphony of the night
And lifted us to the ultimate high.
All those bittersweet kisses
I'd longed for these past months
Tempted my lips like the sweetest wine.
The people of the day slept
And the city rested
But we never felt more alive.
Each word you whispered healed me
Tearing the insecurities apart
Brick by brick until I could breathe.
You held my hand and said you needed to go
It would be so easy
To love you
To hold you
To have you
If anything were easy at all.
I'd love to escape myself
To get out of this shell
To break free from this hell
To stop looking from the inside,
Squinting at the world from behind a window pane.
If you could just make me
Make me breathe
Make me feel
Make me see
Then maybe I could live.
If you were mine
I'd find relief
I'd live up to these dreams of mine
I'd make every moment the sweetest memory
But I'm seeing this all through a camera lens
If this all was easy
I'd be yours forever
I'd take time to taste this world
I'd find a way to make it last
If anything were eas
Titles are overrated by ichooseyoutaychu, literature
Literature
Titles are overrated
I remember all the words you ever spoke.
I still taste all the lies that made me choke.
I tried to burn the city and end my pain,
The world wanted more and all I got was rain.
Everything changes but the people and the lie,
And every empty smile is hiding a good bye.
Glassy eyes look at nothing, my liquor breath.
Too dead to be living, still too alive for death.
Waiting, praying for answers that won't come,
So I try to control the monster I've become.
The voices tell me to give in, let my mind sleep.
Holding on to all this hate, losing what I want to keep.
Knives in your back, life in a fucking fire.
And to think I was the one you
In my heart,
You hold a place.
The one I turn to.
The one I call for.
The one I need now.
The one I need forever.
In my heart,
You're all I need.
I need you close.
I need you here.
I need your smile.
I need your ear.
In my heart,
I love you so much.
For who you are.
For who you aren't.
For what we are.
For what we were.
In my heart,
I know you love me too.
In all the right ways.
And all the wrong.
In the ways you want me to.
In the ways I can't.
In my heart,
I know it'll never be the same.
You're my friend.
You're my brother.
You're my world.
But you're not my hear.
Your loyalty is but a lie,
Your sincerity is your sin.
Your smile is sinister,
Your demeanor demented.
Your friendship is flawed.
You're all that I hate.
Yet, it's your loyalty I long for,
Your sincerity I seek.
Your smile is my salvation,
Your demeanor my dream,
Your friendship is my fault.
You're all that I love.